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I was called many of the hateful names inflicted on gay youth. We went on to have two daughters. Even as I began to feel moments of happiness in these relationships, I also grew to hate myself even more. Before long, I was married.

I found out later that they shared my secret with other people though. During college, I began to have relationships with fellow young gay men, which we secret kept secret. After college, I moved to Texas and, for the first time, found a gay community.

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I made the decision that I would date a woman. Though my parents knew my secret from that point on, they never once talked to me about it. For one night, I got to behave outside of those norms. I denied it to myself, insisting it had been a temporary phase.

I was more interested in boys and had crushes on boys. I survived, and it turned out, fortunately, that the overdose I had taken was not enough to kill me. From very early on, I felt different from others around me. When I attempted suicide, I informed members of my family's kept, which was part of the Church of Christ.

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For years, I kept this part of myself hidden. I explained that I had taken an overdose of pills. But I was convinced that it was wrong, sinful, and something I shouldn't be doing. They informed my parents, who came to the hospital. I told them why, sharing my secret.

But as the only son among four kids, I felt pressure to behave and present myself in the ways that the conservative families around me expected boys to. The only time I remember feeling free from those limits in my gay was on Halloween when I said I was going as my sister.

Despite remaining closeted, I was bullied throughout my teen years for seeming different. But the self-loathing didn't end. During college, I began to have relationships with fellow young gay men, which we always kept secret.